………it’s been awhile…….

it’s been awhile………i have been craving the need to write…….i need it……..it nourishes my being. the absence is due to life happening. life has been wonder-filled. it has been full. it has been busy. it has been one for the books.

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i have been busy at being simply amazed…….

amazed at chubby, berry stained hands

the same hands busy outside, not leaving one dandelion un-touched, the same little being that inherited completely, the saying “to be one with nature”

watching the free spirit that has lived so incredibly well within both my girls. watching them explore through their little life. enjoying the songs and hymns of butterflies and archaic fairies that they so often lovingly speak of during their play time.

watching my oldest shape into such an incredible and fascinating young man. his wonder for all things knowledge, his thirst for wanting to know more and more.

watching the difference between all four is simply lovely. to watch them intertwine with life itself is rather splendid.

watching them grow into individuals is completely rad and bittersweet at the same time. they can only grow from here, no looking back, no going back. it is my mission for all of them to know that every.single.day they are loved. i believe they will.

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being a mother is so many things.

holding hands.

wiping tears.

teacher of life.

frustration.

sleeplessness.

bonding.

growing.

selflessness.

warmth.

chaotic.

peace.

unity.

strength.

courage.

bravery.

pain.

adventure.

encouragement.

emotion.

passion.

…….so many more……..

i have a bond with each one, different than the next. a bond that is heavily armored. i know whose footsteps belong to who. i know the difference in cries, whether it be hurt feelings or injury. i know their quirky habits. i know their wonderful birthmarks. their toes. their smiles. the depth in their very eyes.

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i was meant to be a mother. God knew all along, obviously, even when i questioned it. silly me.

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i hope to be back sooner to post a bit more. i have some more grand things i would love to share.

xoxo

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……Home Tour, Country Living, Baked Goods

how do i decorate? what style do i gravitate towards? what color/s do i use in my home? click on any/every photo to enlarge…

let me first off state that i adore the Country Living magazine, as long as i have known about it, i have adored it. got it from my mama….one of my dreams is to be featured in a publication….fingers crossed. i love that Country Living scours the blogging world to find future homes to showcase and i can only hope that one day, i will have that home they are looking for…..fingers crossed again. my current camera does not have all of these fancy options to achieve a “perfected” look, but if i dont get my ideas and such out there, however will i be noticed, shabby camera and all? so i would like to start with my decor theme. i love love love gray and white, with earth tones here and there. i love industrial, french chic, farmhouse, eclectic….all rolled into one.

change of course here…..one of my passions is baking. i host bake sales at my home and use what is currently in season. majority of what i bake/make is organic. i never use boxed mixes, i have quit using dyes and start my baking days a lot of the time before the sun decides to wake. i know it sounds cliche….but i put a little love in my baked goods and i am very pleased with how well my bake sales do and the amazing amount of positive feedback i receive really just makes my heart happy. i will share some pics of what i bake

so there you have it….home tour, Country Living, baked goods

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my home is about 75 years old with a lot of original work and this fireplace is one of them. i adore our fireplace. i dont do a whole lot of decorating for halloween and i only add a few touches of “fall like” decor. which means more muted colors and some leaves here and there.

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the framed picture is a Goodwill find priced at $3….the vintage print is currently priced at $40 online….score! the “O” represents the intial of my last name. i bought it at Hobby Lobby for $2.5 (it was heavily clearenced) i painted it a gray shade and sanded it down to achieve more of a vintage look. i bought the terrarium at Home Goods clearenced down to $4 because it was missing a couple of glass panels, i simply added a birch log (thank you Mother Nature) and some ivy from my local nursery. i love this terrarium, it does a lot of hosting of vignettes throughout the year and i love the rustic look of it. the glass bottle was another clearence find at Target, i love the French text of it and how it looks like an oversized apothecary bottle. i threw in some twine….because i love twine

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this owl is huge, heavy and one of my most prized possessions….i should say obsession. he is perfect, original price tag of $40, bought it for $15 because he has a slight chunk missing in a place no one will look……he is completely rad.

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love him…..

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bought this candle lantern at Goodwill with Pottery Barn tags still on…..$2….score

 

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built-in bookshelves, one of the originals in my home and it is the perfect space to display my oddities, collections and totally rad finds.

 

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i bought this little $0.88 pumpkin and painted it a matte black shade, put it on a cloche base and used some live moss as fillers…..love the contrast.

 

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my feather loot collected on my walks is a nice homage to nature and using an au naturel look in the home….its simple but i love the statement.

 

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a dried hydrangea from my garden that diplays another natural aspect that i really try to bring into my home…..displayed in a petite vintage square cake pan. the colors are serene and have a slight look of fall

 

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a little collection of books that i like to look in for inspiration. the Vintage by Nina book is my all time fave and seems that everytime i look into it, there is something new

 

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a sweet little nest adorned with some lovely fall leaves

 

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another cool owl….this one a bit more playful, not as serious as the other, but still a ridiculous price i paid of $4 at Home Goods….the stuff they clearence trips me out sometimes

 

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this is a cool statement piece i have hanging on my living room wall. meant to look like an idustrial, rustic chandy. i took a vintage wood frame that was a horrid brownish color and painted it white and sanded some areas to achieve a bit of a worn look. i begged,pleaded, whined nicely asked my husband who jumped with joy 😉 and nailed the frame to the ceiling for me. i had this dome shape accent piece that was not created for what i am using it for, but that makes some of the best design pieces (which I bought for $4….and it is huge), i hung up some real crystal accents i borrowed from my real chandelier and voila! a super rad design piece. please excuse my tiled ceilings…….ha!

 

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close up the frame

 

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close up the crystals

 

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one of my favorite purchases is this antique physicians table that i bought for a mere $20….it has these secret drawers and cubbies…..love

 

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i bought this vintage inspired cylinder bottle set at World Market. i dipped some of my feathers in gold paint and placed them in the glass bottles for chic look. i really love how the feathers turned out

 

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close up of feathers

 

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another view of my bookshelf

 

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industrial rustic type chandy

 

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another view of the fireplace

now onto the baked goods…….

 

homemade cinnamon roll….not yet frosted, but it was so delicious without

caramel marshmallows….yes, homemade

vanilla marshmallows….and again, yes, homemade

 

double chocolate and triple vanilla cupcakes

homemade graham crackers with homemade marshmallows

there is a lot…..a lot more where they came from…….

thank you all for reading and following along, i am quite grateful! xoxo

 

Creating A Love Story Out Of Death….

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Good looking couple right?!…..My Papa and Granny…..papa passed over 10 years ago and granny passed July 4th 2014. Death has hit my family hard over a course of years….we all experience death at some point or another but I cant help and think that we have had over our fair share.

Death seems to go hand in hand with love, does it not? Think about it….death gives us that sting, that “stop us in our tracks”, that feeling of possibly being ran over, that feeling that our heart has literally dropped from it’s firm holding place to now the pit of our stomach where nothing seems secure…..do we not experience the same feelings towards love? That sting, that heart dropping moment? And nothing is more certain in life than death and love….we can always count on those two happening…more than once.

I have so many fond memories of these two magical people. They were both hard-working, the exact epitome of “Country Living”, loving, kind, stern, teachers, givers. They loved eachother so much and it showed…..I saw it at a very young age and thought to myself that having that kind of love…well, then nothing else could possibly matter.

I cant help but feel bittersweet…..I now have no grandparents left, something I quite possibly could feel envious towards others about. But I feel that with my papa and granny and my grams and gramps, I cant help but feel delighted they are all together, they were meant for one another.

Funny how we could do without anothers “wisdom” but after their gone, we long for nothing more, we long to just ask them one last question, to say one last goodbyes and i love you’s and such. I long to have just a little more time…….but death is inevitable, just like love. I want to love the time spent, love the memories and pass it on to my children.

In heartbreak there is love….somewhere….but it’s there. Its in the memories, it brings families and friends together……Death is a necessity as much as love is. We need death.. to continue on, truly we do even though we may feel we absolutely cannot go on, we must……because in death we find love and love is worth dying for. All kinds of love…..perhaps between lovers, parents and their children, complete strangers even……hold on to it, feel it, live it, breathe it, so that by chance, when the inevitable happens, we will find love…it will be restored once again