…….Oct.20th……

the sun was bright this morning….no breeze, no songs of birds. the sun started to fade, a breeze picked up and the earth was alive with singing birds, it was almost spring-like. my heart danced….i do enjoy the cloudy skies…..always have.

i opened every window i could to allow nature in my home….the scent, the coolness, the shadows of gray skies against my snow white walls. things were a bit different today. my sweet baby wanted his mama all day…….he is as busy as they come, a lot like his older brother when he was quite young. but he wanted to nurse all day…..linger in my arms a bit longer……twirl his little fingers in my hair to put hisself to sleep.

as i watched him frequent the open window, it was so picturesque. the breeze gently moved his messy hair about, his little chubby hands on the screen as if to grab every piece of nature and keep it all his own. he heard the birds talking and he pointed his little finger out…..”where are you little birdie” as i imagine his thoughts. the clouds moved faster to cover the sun and he would run back to me smiling.

as i watched his every perfection, i knew that i wanted to capture that very moment…..the way he stared at me, his magical little being.

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far from a “perfect” picture….but this is what is perefct to me…for me

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his face of intent

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he has his daddys feet….little porkchops is what we lovingly call them

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his gentle little hands that will one day turn into those of a man…a bit rougher, tales of hard work, no longer fitting into the palms of his mamas hand

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his sweet face….his perfect eyebrows

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his face of hurt feelings……

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………love

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dissecting his lunch and mashing it between his fingers

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my heart…..my sweet Sparrow Moon

….fall fashion im diggin’…..

2 posts in 1 week…..pretty rad. im stoked with what this season brings….cooler weather, cozy fires, dressing the part. i cant wait to bring out my scarves, my boots, my cozy sweaters…..the following photos im using to refresh my own wardrobe.

oxblood nails + stacked rings are just a few of our favorite fall accessory trends!

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this is toatlly me, holding a coffee mug, nails painted a rich winter red and the different variations of the rings is super cool….i could maybe, just maybe, pull it off if i was a tad younger ;)

Fall Booties! I only have one pair from Victoria's Secret that are extremely uncomfortable. I need more of these!

 

 

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flattery.ca Literally wear mine all the time, best booties ever!!!

 

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both photos above showcase some super rad booties…..i would love a pair or 2…

There's something really appealing about this scarf. It doesn't take itself seriously, the lace makes it seem more delicate :)

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really diggin’ the lace incorporated with the fabric on this scarf

grey infinity loop; anthropologie

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i am a huge fan of anthropologie and this scarf is no exception…

Plaid infinity scarf with leather snap placket?! yes please!

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i LOVE plaid….always have….go take a gander at this girls shop on Etsy…System 63….she has some seriously rad things over there and she is obviously crazy talented

Superdry Lumberjack Hood - but the price >.

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speaking of plaid……i think i need this….i mean, i know i want it, but i need it

Style Scrapbook: Plaid Jacket + Dress + Wide Brim Hat

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love….

H&M Fall Fashion Trends - Classy Grey Jacket #H&M #Jackets  Get a 20% H&M Coupon Code here - http://www.thriftymoment.com/search?h=%23hm

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my style….completely….love h&m

Best gray, taupe and brown nail polish colors! stylingmyeveryday.com

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i love me some nail polish…..apparently passed that trait on to my girls. “me time” is not too often as i am a busy wife and mom of 4….but when/if the time arrives, i lock myself in the bathroom and paint my fingernails and tootsies. it makes me feel good, its that extra accessory for me but without spending and insane amount of time. the color board of nailpolishes above i feel like were put together just for me….brilliant colors

butter LONDON 'Steampunk Ball' Nail Lacquer Collection (Limited Edition) ($60 Value) | Nordstrom

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the butter steampunk collection is pretty lovely and i must say how much i love this brand. if i can afford it and nail polish is in the budget, i usually buy butter/london or essie. great polishes!

one of the reasons i love to blog is to share my ideas and thoughts, like hopefully others out there live in the same dream world where money isnt a concern and we can afford all of these outfits and such…..the following outfits live in my dream in my dream world……..;)

Casual Outfit Ideas for Women 2014 | Casual Plaid Outfit, plaid shirt, tan scalf, Skinnies and Brown Knee ...

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my outfit for apple picking…

2014 fashions for women:Black sweater, jeans, black bag, glasses and shoes for ladies

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my outfit for casual saturday….

love

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outfit for date night…..really need more date nights…..

it’s not just the look of things, but the colors, the atmospheres…..that make fall “fall” i know im walking away from this post with tons of inspiration…..xoxo

 

……Home Tour, Country Living, Baked Goods

how do i decorate? what style do i gravitate towards? what color/s do i use in my home? click on any/every photo to enlarge…

let me first off state that i adore the Country Living magazine, as long as i have known about it, i have adored it. got it from my mama….one of my dreams is to be featured in a publication….fingers crossed. i love that Country Living scours the blogging world to find future homes to showcase and i can only hope that one day, i will have that home they are looking for…..fingers crossed again. my current camera does not have all of these fancy options to achieve a “perfected” look, but if i dont get my ideas and such out there, however will i be noticed, shabby camera and all? so i would like to start with my decor theme. i love love love gray and white, with earth tones here and there. i love industrial, french chic, farmhouse, eclectic….all rolled into one.

change of course here…..one of my passions is baking. i host bake sales at my home and use what is currently in season. majority of what i bake/make is organic. i never use boxed mixes, i have quit using dyes and start my baking days a lot of the time before the sun decides to wake. i know it sounds cliche….but i put a little love in my baked goods and i am very pleased with how well my bake sales do and the amazing amount of positive feedback i receive really just makes my heart happy. i will share some pics of what i bake

so there you have it….home tour, Country Living, baked goods

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my home is about 75 years old with a lot of original work and this fireplace is one of them. i adore our fireplace. i dont do a whole lot of decorating for halloween and i only add a few touches of “fall like” decor. which means more muted colors and some leaves here and there.

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the framed picture is a Goodwill find priced at $3….the vintage print is currently priced at $40 online….score! the “O” represents the intial of my last name. i bought it at Hobby Lobby for $2.5 (it was heavily clearenced) i painted it a gray shade and sanded it down to achieve more of a vintage look. i bought the terrarium at Home Goods clearenced down to $4 because it was missing a couple of glass panels, i simply added a birch log (thank you Mother Nature) and some ivy from my local nursery. i love this terrarium, it does a lot of hosting of vignettes throughout the year and i love the rustic look of it. the glass bottle was another clearence find at Target, i love the French text of it and how it looks like an oversized apothecary bottle. i threw in some twine….because i love twine

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this owl is huge, heavy and one of my most prized possessions….i should say obsession. he is perfect, original price tag of $40, bought it for $15 because he has a slight chunk missing in a place no one will look……he is completely rad.

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love him…..

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bought this candle lantern at Goodwill with Pottery Barn tags still on…..$2….score

 

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built-in bookshelves, one of the originals in my home and it is the perfect space to display my oddities, collections and totally rad finds.

 

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i bought this little $0.88 pumpkin and painted it a matte black shade, put it on a cloche base and used some live moss as fillers…..love the contrast.

 

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my feather loot collected on my walks is a nice homage to nature and using an au naturel look in the home….its simple but i love the statement.

 

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a dried hydrangea from my garden that diplays another natural aspect that i really try to bring into my home…..displayed in a petite vintage square cake pan. the colors are serene and have a slight look of fall

 

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a little collection of books that i like to look in for inspiration. the Vintage by Nina book is my all time fave and seems that everytime i look into it, there is something new

 

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a sweet little nest adorned with some lovely fall leaves

 

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another cool owl….this one a bit more playful, not as serious as the other, but still a ridiculous price i paid of $4 at Home Goods….the stuff they clearence trips me out sometimes

 

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this is a cool statement piece i have hanging on my living room wall. meant to look like an idustrial, rustic chandy. i took a vintage wood frame that was a horrid brownish color and painted it white and sanded some areas to achieve a bit of a worn look. i begged,pleaded, whined nicely asked my husband who jumped with joy ;) and nailed the frame to the ceiling for me. i had this dome shape accent piece that was not created for what i am using it for, but that makes some of the best design pieces (which I bought for $4….and it is huge), i hung up some real crystal accents i borrowed from my real chandelier and voila! a super rad design piece. please excuse my tiled ceilings…….ha!

 

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close up the frame

 

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close up the crystals

 

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one of my favorite purchases is this antique physicians table that i bought for a mere $20….it has these secret drawers and cubbies…..love

 

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i bought this vintage inspired cylinder bottle set at World Market. i dipped some of my feathers in gold paint and placed them in the glass bottles for chic look. i really love how the feathers turned out

 

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close up of feathers

 

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another view of my bookshelf

 

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industrial rustic type chandy

 

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another view of the fireplace

now onto the baked goods…….

 

homemade cinnamon roll….not yet frosted, but it was so delicious without

caramel marshmallows….yes, homemade

vanilla marshmallows….and again, yes, homemade

 

double chocolate and triple vanilla cupcakes

homemade graham crackers with homemade marshmallows

there is a lot…..a lot more where they came from…….

thank you all for reading and following along, i am quite grateful! xoxo

 

fall is here….althought the weather still screams summer….i love fall, some of my fondest memories are centered during this time. cooler weather…..jewel tone colors….gray skies…….cozy…..scarves……boots…….baking………everything inside of me breaks open and free’s my soul. God exists and autumn is proof

i cannot wait to bake in the kitchen with my girls. collect nature loot with my boys. cozy up with the hubbs. pure perfection folks….pure perfection

i love getting inspiration and feeling encouraged to continue on with home ideas…..finding new recipes to make my own. there are so many photos out there that just make me happy……they tell a story. photos that are just straight eye candy….like the ones below…..

Washed grey with a hint of pumpkin

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the gray pewter velvet with the muted pumpkin color……rad

I love this this neutral living room, decorated with natural elements. #living_room #neutral

 

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my walls are painted white in my home but these cement colored walls are influencing me in another direction. i really want a cowhide rug…….the lighting fixture is ridiculously amazing and i love the live plants under cloches, something i do in my own decor statements. the coffee table is completely rad. nuff said

Apple cider caramel pound cake

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really?? apple cider caramel pound cake….totally

Vanilla Cinnamon Iced Coffee at home!

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vanilla cinnamon iced coffee….homemade…..possibly my new best friend

Thoughts from Alice: DIY Feather & Plate Art - antique ironstone, transferware, gold frames, feathers and masking tape - simple gallery wall for dining room

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a way cool project to do with the nature loot that my boys and i have plenty of……and the fact that i have the very same platter (3 actually) is very inspiring

Got to try this... orange peel star garland

(Tea with Ruby )

what is something i collect? a lot, but to name one…..twine. i dont know what my deal is with twine but i love it. simply. this is too cute not to do….to use as a garland, packaging a gift or sweets…..whatevs. love

Vintage House: DIY(vintage-house.blogspot.com.es)

i want to wake up in this space one morning…….

Emile et Ida . Fall-Winter 2014 .(smallable.com )

adorable. and that has been verified by my 2 daughters. which both have informed me that they would really really (really) like to have this outfit. i think this is such a great alternative to halloween costumes too…..paint an extra set of whiskers on the face and your good to go. certianly better than buying ridiculously high prices on something that wont be worn often and wear easily…..

 

what are you looking forward to this fall? xoxo

…..glimpse of heaven

5 years ago in november my mother offered to pick me up and head out to buy an outfit….my reply “sure……i suppose” with much hesitation. i didnt want to…..i didnt think i should….i wanted to stay in bed.

it was an outfit for my brothers memorial service.

we took the long way……we went down a tree lined street. one where every.single. tree. was pure perfection. the wood was dark from the soaking of rainfall the night before and the leaves were handcrafted by God himself. the colors were those of an apple orchard…..golden delicious, granny smith, jonagold, red delicious. the veins in the leaves gave such contrast of beauty….they were reaching every which way as if to extend each leaf to its full potential. it was raining too. a soft rain. a still rain. i put my face upon the window to feel the coolness as the rain lightly touched the window. the drops of rain matching my own drops of tears.

everything around me at that very moment was still. my breathing. my heartbeat. my entire world. the rain was quietly falling on the leaves….it was a bit magical….to see tiny drops of rain dancing atop the freshly fallen leaves.

my mom was conversing with me the whole while to which i have no idea what she said. i was nodding in agreement when i thought appropriate and gave the casual replies of “yes” “no” “sure” when i thought they were due. i dont even know what day it was. i dont even remember what day my brothers memorial service was. im good with dates but after november 15th 2009 everything just stopped.

i think of that day often. replaying it my mind over and over again. how placid that moment was. how i know nothing else of that time but that moment. it was a moment where it was just me, even surrounded by others. it was a moment where i caught a mere glimpse of Heaven and what it must be. it was a moment where i understood that no more pain lived in my brothers life. i imagine a young boy on this tree lined street with the colorful leaves and the soft rain and see him dancing as the raindrops did atop the leaves at that moment. no care in the world. just him. just his leaves. just his dancing. his moment.

 

Thoughts Collected

my thoughts collected as of september 1st till now.

early morning rush.

3 hours of homework. 2 of which belong to one child.

sleepless.

coffee driven.

determined.

fall.

leaves.

paint.

laundry.

clean home.

organize.

mischievous baby.

cook.

wishing more hours in the day.

loving myself.

finding my worth.

who am i.

prayers for my children.

prayers for my husband…..prayers for me.

short days.

long nights.

wondering.

wandering.

stubborn.

loving.

life.

what else is there.

need.

Recycle a vintage frame - hang picture using clothes pin on rope. No glass needed - would work great for kid's art work too.

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i really like this image. its kinda me. i feel a bit weathered sometimes. tired. lived through seasons and it shows. i wear some of my past. but the winter tree is me too. waiting for something new. to be refreshed. waiting for a new season. waiting to be green. knowing my past and all that i have seen. heard. anticipating more. spreading my branches. reaching out.

xoxo

 

 

autumn, my favorite color

sitting here, friday night, august 29th……only 2 days left of this month. heat is still very much in the air, no evidence just yet of my favorite color, autumn. she will be here soon though. gracefully. artistically. perfectly.

she starts out with a morning chill, flooding one’s mind with childhood play in an orchard. she provides a floor of beauty, the crunch of freshly fallen leaves underfoot. she provides warmth with fresh pressed apple cider, like eclipsing our very being in a wash of velvet or flannel. she brings with her a bloom of colors. certain colors for only a certain time in hopes that we never take advantage of such beauty. we would never grasp such allure if we were surrounded every day. every night. autumn can only stay for awhile. to give us hope. give us promise. give us belief. when she arrives, i shall hold her close to my heart. i will wear autumn. all season long.

boots and yellow leaves

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pears with caramelised nuts

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Everything about this picture makes me happy -- from the character of the wood to the pop of green in the leaves to the texture of the burlap.

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Frosty ~ By Mark Bridger

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acorns   . @thedailybasics ♥♥♥

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Hunter Boots in fall leaves

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Pumpkin Muffins with a Candied Walnut Streusel | Soft and moist pumpking muffins

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More so in New England. Sadly here in Houston...eh.

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Small Home, Big Ideas

after searching and searching (about 70+ homes) myself, a two year old and an 8 month old stumbled upon a home. a home that didnt necessarily thrill me from the looks of the outside. i only agreed to look at the home because it was in the area of another potential home. myself, two children and real estate agent couldnt even step-foot inside due to a miscommunication with the seller, so i looked in any window that allowed a view inside. after looking in about four windows, i called my husband at work and told him that i wanted to make an offer on the home, a home i only saw through windows and he said “let’s do it”.

once i was able to do a walk through….i fell….fell hard. yes the kitchen was painted an awful peach, yes the bathroom tile was the same peach and brown, yes some of the ceilings were covered with gross cardboard tile and there was no central a/c (yes, a luxury that seems to be a must during these california summers).

i have the ability however to see more. i did see those things and perhaps that is why the house was on the market for so long, but what i truly saw were the original heart of pine wood floors, the craftsman style built-ins, the simply fantastic brick fireplace, the antique floor furnace, bay windows, original antique crown molding, i even fell for the quirkiness of the doorways. when others ran, i accepted, i loved, i nurtured.

fast forward 7 years and adding two more children. i must mention this is a two bedroom, ONE BATH home (gasp!!) 80+ in age and 1400 sq.ft. was perfect in size at the time, but it is growing a bit small these days. i have heard a lot over the years from various people who live in the same “cookie-cutter” houses, same sq.footage, no charm, same floor plan, nothing quirky, same gardening scheme, etc. etc. i just cant follow that path folks, that is not where my heart is. my heart belongs to the homes that have been loved and have much more love to give.

lately, quite a bit, we have contemplated moving. more space, new environment, new town, but the same quirkiness and love that we have grown so use to. i dont have it in me to sell my home right now, i have poured everything i have and then some to make this home i have. renting is an option and in the winning, but i even have a hard time with that. i dont want random people in and out, people who dont quite appreciate the memories made in this home, people who dont care for this home like they should….like i do. ughh, whats a girl to do?!

i was cruising pinterest and you know, there are so many lovely spaces! i need to add the photos that im totally digging in this post. there is so much inspiration out there and whether i rent or sell, these are ideas that are totally keeping me up at night. while im here, i will continue to make my space, our space, more livable and enjoyable, no matter how small.

From the Living With Kids Home Tour featuring Kat Hertzler.

(designmom.com)

i adore the huge chalkboard. i painted a section of a wall in the kitchen with chalkboard paint and it is used almost daily, anything from shopping lists to drawings from the kids. i love the painted legs of the table and how the top is kept rustic. mason jars with chalkboard tags? yes

Cool window...

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i love white…..i truly love it. a little known fact about my home…majority of it is white, by my own accord and it is completely doable with 4 kids. the white in this room with exposed wood, i dont think it gets any better and the use of the shelving from the wood, a total space saver.

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a tall, slender cabinet like this is perfect for my home to provide more storage. once again, the white is the perfect shade and really makes the aqua color on the wheels pop. the flooring is way cool and provides a softer element with all of the heavenly chipped paint.

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i really want something like this for the kids crafts and such. super cool

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this one too….pure goodness. and a huge mirror which allows a room to appear larger.

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i really love the idea of getting a big ‘ol work table, pulling up a couple of benches and calling it a day. the table above has a pull out drawer, how handy to have and put silverware, napkins etc. complete with a simple flower arrangement. definitely my style.

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this little space is perfect. having a small awkward space is not uncommon in older homes. however, smaller spaces should not go un-noticed or be neglected. this is perfect for a little office area or homework station. add a couple of plants, some vintage coffee cans for crayons, pencils, etc.

Beautiful Bedroom

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more built-ins and more tones of white.

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so, this perfect. i have nothing else to say.

bathroom

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the sink is rad. it reminds me of a quiche dish and i love the table base. rustic wood. snow white brick. fixtures attached to the wall. love

love the rustic look of the wood

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great storage. great sink. great fixtures. great colors. i adore this space

 

i could add many more photos, but i will stop here. xoxoxo

im a dreamer. a believer. i am. my surroundings may not always allow it though. for as long as i can remember being a dreamer is kinda my thing. my very being wouldnt be content any other way. "a DREAM is a WISH your HEART makes" - cinderella

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a dreamer has the ability to become lost. i need to be lost sometimes for this is when i truly find myself. a good book. a mysterious door leading to somewhere enchanted. or sitting alone and collecting my thoughts. all of these are a bit like possessing a magic wand.

with a wave of my magic wand

(barbara cb)

a magic wand taking you where you want to go. where you want to be.

i quite often have this image that im running, not for “for my life” running, but perhaps playing a game of catch with my littles. we are so content. laughing. my girls wearing a crown of forest moss and wildflowers. and my boys with their makeshift bow & arrows from the findings of wood on the forest floor. all are barefoot, feeling refreshed from the morning dew on the velvet ground, covered with all sorts of moss.

Woodland Newborn halo Photo Prop Moss and flower head wrap

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its the same dream……quite often. i flourish when im lost. my creativity flows. i move to a different rythym. gracefully and quick like a fawn.

Story Inspiration: A girl with light auburn hair and freckles stared at me. I looked at her, from the ground where Quint had left me. She began to grow antlers from her head. Then her face took form of a snout. Slowly, she transformed into a deer. Not a fully grown one. Just a fawn. She stared at me again with beady, deer eyes, then galloped away.

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i see my own babes have inherited this lost nature. at times it prohibits them from accomplishing simple things. but they are pure. they are fresh. so when the nature for becoming lost calls them….they go. without a care in the world. and i simply love it. i love it because they understand what it means to dream. how does one accomplish such greatness without a dream?

you need to dream. to believe. to put faith in. to be lost.

 

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the inevitable is happening….right now, this very second. my babes are growing up. we know this is bound to happen, but maybe not quite aware how rapid. my heart is a bit anxious, worried, excited, heavy even? i have 4 “thems” and 3 of them head off to school next week. i know, i know, my babes are so young but honestly, i dont want to picture them as adults just yet, i want them to be kids, i want them to enjoy life in the genuine matter that kids can only seem to do. i dont want them to experience a world just yet plagued with problems that they just cant grasp, besides the basic algebra. is that wrong of me. i dont particularly think so. i will now have a new school babe, fresh off to kindergarten….and that is where my heavy heart comes in. i became a stay at home mom when i was pregnant with her, so she has never experienced daycare, nor has she experienced pre-school….i am, to say the least, heartbroken. and i can tell she is nervous, so of course i play it cool, tell her all the amazing things she will learn and all the friends she will make, but what if? what if every.single.kid in that school doesnt like her, like they absolutely should (in my opinion anyhow =). what if she gets made fun of because she cant quite pronounce her r’s. what if she has an accident at school because she fogets to use the restroom. so many concerns and thoughts and it only gets worse as the day approaches. and i may or may not would be okay with getting a call before school starts, that the school is no longer, forcing the kids to stay home with me (because apparently there is no other school they could go to in my mind haha, no logic there folks) my husband tells me all will be okay, she will do perfectly but its just in our nature to worry, to make sure every gosh darn thing goes perfectly and smoothly, even if i have to give the stink-eye to the kids who you just know are sketchy characters (yikes, i just said that!)

with this, i add a new 4th grader and 2nd grader to the mix. lilli (the new 2nd grader) is crazy excited, she has informed me countless times she wishes she could go to summer school. she is so book smart. however, she is excited to add to her ever growing list of friends. definitely dubbed ms. popular and she is what you would imagine i suppose pink.glitter.talk.smile.witty.personality.totally rad.

xzavier, x-man, x to the z, zave, whatever his nickname is for the day, he is my new 4th grader. and i.hate.it. hear me out and mothers of sons im sure you already know why. he is growing up. he has taken a liking to a couple of girls (i comletely just got sick typing that) i refuse to openly acknowledge it because also in my world, i shall be the only woman for him. he is my heart. him and i are crazy alike so it is not always fantastic when we are together. he made me a mother. he allowed a part of my soul to open to accept true love. he loves with his whole heart and i pray to God he will never lose that.

so, this is essentially my last week with just us for awhile. it will be sparrow and i. and for sparrow, i feel sad. he has counted on his siblings waking up each morning with him, loving him like a bunch of maniacs, spoiling him like i have never seen in my life and then one day, he wont have that, he will be stuck with me for 6 hours. my poor baby.

i am excited for my little loves, the journey of growing and helping them along the way, but it would be an absolute lie if i said i wasnt worried, afraid, concerned, protective and everything else that comes along with being a mama.

i already miss them

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(this was my guy when he was 4, now he’s 9….and this was his smile)

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(my girls, my new 2nd grader and my new kindergartener)

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(sparrow at 4 days old)

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(sparrow at 5 months)

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(sparrow present day)

 

i need to find baby, baby pictures of my other loves….for this is how they will forever remain in my mind. i will surely miss our summer, lazy days, park trips, late movie nights, ice cream sundaes for dinner and so many other memories that i will hold very close until the next summer arrives to add more memories.